L\u00edfi\u00f0 er b\u00fai\u00f0 a\u00f0 s\u00f6kka upp \u00e1 s\u00ed\u00f0kasti\u00f0. Ekkert nema h\u00f6rmungafr\u00e9ttir og vi\u00f0 erum h\u00e1lf dottin \u00far takti. \u00c9g sem a\u00f0 var b\u00fan a\u00f0 vera h\u00e1lf \u00e1hugalaus um kynl\u00edf og \u00fea\u00f0 var b\u00fai\u00f0 a\u00f0 smita \u00feig. Okkur hefur tekist a\u00f0 vi\u00f0halda einhverju l\u00e1gmarki en n\u00fa er m\u00e9r fari\u00f0 a\u00f0 lei\u00f0ast, \u00fea\u00f0 er yfileitt \u00e1v\u00edsun \u00e1 vandr\u00e6\u00f0i.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00de\u00fa ert samt svo g\u00f3\u00f0ur, miklu betri en \u00e9g. \u00c9g veit a\u00f0 \u00e9g er \u00e1 sk\u00e1, \u00e9g veit a\u00f0 \u00e9g er erfi\u00f0 og bi\u00f0 \u00feig um hluti sem er erfitt fyrir \u00feig, erfitt \u00fev\u00ed \u00fe\u00fa ert svo ofbo\u00f0slega g\u00f3\u00f0ur. Vi\u00f0 h\u00f6fum veri\u00f0 \u00e1 \u00feessum sta\u00f0 \u00e1\u00f0ur, oft \u00e1\u00f0ur.
\u00cd vonleysi m\u00ednu \u00fearf \u00e9g \u00feetta, \u00e9g kann illa a\u00f0 \u00fatsk\u00fdra \u00fea\u00f0 anna\u00f0 en a\u00f0 \u00e9g finn a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00fearf \u00feetta. \u00c9g \u00fearf a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa bindir mig, \u00e9g \u00fearf a\u00f0 sleppa takinu, \u00e9g er svo rei\u00f0 og \u00e9g kann ekki a\u00f0 sleppa \u00fev\u00ed.
\u00c9g \u00fearf a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa mei\u00f0ir mig, \u00e9g er or\u00f0in svo dofin \u00e9g \u00fearf eitthva\u00f0, mig vantar bara a\u00f0 finna eitthva\u00f0 anna\u00f0 en vonleysi\u00f0.
\u00c9g veit ekki afhverju \u00feetta kemur svona \u00fat en \u00e9g bara veit a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00fearf \u00feetta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Vi\u00f0 r\u00edfumst, \u00e9g er farin a\u00f0 vera \u00fdtin, vi\u00f0 h\u00f6fum veri\u00f0 h\u00e9rna \u00e1\u00f0ur. \u00de\u00fa b\u00fd\u00f0ur m\u00e9r m\u00e1lami\u00f0lun, vi\u00f0 h\u00f6fum veri\u00f0 h\u00e9rna \u00e1\u00f0ur. Vi\u00f0 r\u00e6\u00f0um valkosti, vi\u00f0 r\u00f3umst, vi\u00f0 s\u00e6ttumst, vi\u00f0 h\u00f6fum veri\u00f0 h\u00e9r \u00e1\u00f0ur.
Vi\u00f0 erum gr\u00f6\u00f0 af\u00fev\u00ed tilfinningar eru \u00ed h\u00e1marki, \u00fe\u00fa s\u00fdnir m\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa treystir \u00fe\u00e9r til a\u00f0 taka p\u00ednu \u00e1 m\u00e9r, \u00e9g minni \u00e1 a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 skiptir mig miklu m\u00e1li a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa s\u00e9rt samt ekki rei\u00f0ur vi\u00f0, \u00e9g \u00fearf r\u00e9tta farveginn, \u00e9g \u00fearf a\u00f0 \u00feetta s\u00e9 samt gert \u00e1 r\u00e9ttum forendum, \u00fe\u00fa skilur hva\u00f0 \u00e9g er a\u00f0 segja, en vi\u00f0 erum b\u00e6\u00f0i \u00ed v\u00edmu af tilfinningum og r\u00e1\u00f0um ekki vi\u00f0 lostann, vi\u00f0 h\u00f6fum veri\u00f0 h\u00e9r \u00e1\u00f0ur.
Vi\u00f0 r\u00ed\u00f0um og \u00fe\u00fa tekur a\u00f0eins harkalega \u00e1 m\u00e9r, s\u00fdnir m\u00e9r hva\u00f0 g\u00e6ti or\u00f0i\u00f0.
Eftir \u00fe\u00e1 tekur \u00fe\u00fa fyrsta skrefi\u00f0, segir a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa viljir reyna a\u00f0 st\u00edga skrefi\u00f0 til fulls og stingur upp \u00e1 dagsetningu til a\u00f0 s\u00fdna a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r er alvara, vi\u00f0 h\u00f6fum ekki veri\u00f0 h\u00e9r \u00e1\u00f0ur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Daginn eftir, \u00e9g er ein heima, \u00ed sta\u00f0in fyrr a\u00f0 hugsa um \u00f6murlegar fr\u00e9ttir \u00fe\u00e1 fer huginn \u00f3sj\u00e1lfr\u00e1tt \u00e1 dagatali\u00f0, \u00e9g finn \u00e9g er a\u00f0 telja ni\u00f0ur, mig langar ekki a\u00f0 vera svona spennt en \u00e9g bara er \u00fea\u00f0.
Hva\u00f0 er hann me\u00f0 \u00ed huga? Hva\u00f0 \u00feurfum vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 tala um og fara yfir?
\u00c9g l\u00e6t renna \u00ed ba\u00f0.
Afkl\u00e6\u00f0i mig og sko\u00f0a mig \u00ed speglinum, str\u00fdk yfir upphandleggin sem \u00fe\u00fa kreistir a\u00f0eins \u00ed g\u00e6r, \u00e9g er ekki marin en \u00e9g finn a\u00f0 \u00e9g er aum. \u00dea\u00f0 skolast yfir mig undarleg tilfinning. \u00der\u00e1tt fyrir tilfinningar\u00fass\u00edbanan tengi \u00e9g bara vi\u00f0 allar g\u00f3\u00f0u tilfinningarnar. g\u00f3\u00f0ar tilfinningar, gredda og einveran er g\u00f3\u00f0 samblanda.
Sendi \u00fe\u00e9r skilabo\u00f0, \u00feessar tilfinningar eru of g\u00f3\u00f0ar til a\u00f0 sitja ein \u00e1 \u00feeim. L\u00e6t \u00feig vita a\u00f0 \u00e9g er a\u00f0 hugsa d\u00f3nalega um \u00feig, \u00e9g er a\u00f0 fara \u00ed ba\u00f0 og \u00e9g \u00e6tla a\u00f0 l\u00e1ta mig koma.
Og geri svo n\u00e1kv\u00e6mlega \u00fea\u00f0.
\u00dea\u00f0 eina sem \u00e9g sag\u00f0i \u00fe\u00e9r kannski ekki var hversu hart \u00e9g kom \u00feegar \u00e9g \u00fdtti \u00e1 \u00feennan auma blett sem \u00e9g fann.
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L\u00edfi\u00f0 er b\u00fai\u00f0 a\u00f0 s\u00f6kka upp \u00e1 s\u00ed\u00f0kasti\u00f0. Ekkert nema h\u00f6rmungafr\u00e9ttir og vi\u00f0 erum h\u00e1lf dottin \u00far takti. \u00c9g sem a\u00f0 var b\u00fan a\u00f0 vera…<\/p>\n